Why can't I be happy knowing I have your love?
Is it because you're not him, the one who took it first,
Who kindly tore my heart out and left it at the door;
Only to use me for everything I had...
You're really well intentioned, you're more than I could ask for.
But you're everything I want and I need, that I've never had before;
And knowing I have you, Isn't what I'll settle for.
I want the first boy back, the one who doesn't want me;
The one who lies and still tries to entice me.
And now I'm back to the beginning, I don't know what to choose,
The one who makes sense or the one who will abuse.
It shouldn't be this hard, it's obvious what is best;
But best isn't good enough, it wont take me from this mess.
