Now I wait...
As the ocean wave comes crashing down.
I can feel the breeze in my hair.
As I become weak in the knees and tumble to the ground,
I think of how scary this might become and be.
I suddenly fall and cannot get up.
My eyes close and that is the last I remember.
I then wake up and thought I drowned...
But I was on the beach.. on the sand with no water
I am by
My family was crying ~ I didn't understand why
I then realized I was in a hospital bed...
I had one broken leg and my heart beat was weak.
I could barely lift my head and move my body.
My mom came over and smiled because I was awake.
My family told me I would be in the hospital for one week.
I started to cry but became too weak.
My friends and more family visited.
I started to talk and laughed and tried to
Become S.t.r.o.n.g.e.r.
I am finally completely awake.
My family and friends later leave, and,
I fall asleep.
I go into a deep sleep with a dream
I will never forget.
I was drowning, and no one helped me.
I never woke up because I drowned.
Then I woke up from the dream in a sweat,
I had flowers around me like I died.
I couldn't believe my eyes.
I started crying my eyes out like you
wouldn't believe.
I called th nurse for ice cold water~
Instead I got hot water and spit it up.
I'm now mad I don't care about pain.
I get up and run to the water fountain
I jug my face in the nice cold water.
I never thought my life would come to this
I get a knife and just cut my arm
Then I watch the blood rush down the arm
Nobody understands.
Life is worse. My life to you is probably fabulous
But elsewhere, its one word: terrible
But at the hospital, it's just confusing and frustrating.
After the knife,
I went back to my room and looked out
the dirty, blurry window.
I thought about jumping off..but I
wanted to live.
I walked outside with the nurse
Because I couldn't bear staying inside
A couple days passed and I did nothing
But watch a marathon of Law & Order.
It was all depressing since thats my life
Visitors came and left.
I got no school-work since I was so sick.
I kept flashing back to when I fainted.
Now I sit still until I'm pale in the face.
Which makes your anxiety go away...Now only
a week and a day left... being left in a torture chamber.
