I cant say it

I try so hard,
everyday,
its not fair,
i cant have it your way.

your so sweet to me,
treat me right,
i love what i see,
and whats in your mind.

you call me every night,
you make it your goal,
it feels so right,
but its all too old.

i have a bad feeling about falling,
it happens every time,
and i can never get up.

it feels like i brake every bone in my body,
my heart slowly dies,
loving nobody,
buried in lies.

i love how you sound when you say it,
when you whisper it in my ear,
should i hate you for this?,
i don't want you to be near.

your i love yous burn in my head,
I'm choking on all your words,
it feels like I'm dead,
i want to be for sure.

I'm to close to the edge,
i like what we have,
but its not working,
i wont let myself say i love you too.