How long will this go on?
This pain that shudders my world
Pain that only oneself can feel
If guidance does not come
Does not come soon
I will guide myself
Guide myself to misery
To blood and pain
I do not wish for sympathy
I do not wish for comfort
I only desire a happy life
Full of joy
Full of pride
I only hope for that someone
To pick me up
Tell me things will be oâ??rite
Tell me I will have a life of happiness
Happiness that will go on forever
But I am still waitingâ?¦
Iâ??ve made mistakes
Mistakes that cannot be healed
I fear for myself
As no one else will
I fear that again
Mistakes will be made
I do not want to end this life
This life of a horrible past
A terrible history
A life that tears my heart
With every waking moment
But if life does not get better
And life does not change
Then I will change it
Change it for the worst
I will get that sharp object
I will dig it in deep
Thinking of all the emotions
I could never feel
Could never experience
This would make me mad
Forcing that object deeper
As deep as it can go
Making blood pour
Pour from my unloved
And pitiful body
And as I watch the blood flow
Flow from my skin
I will fall
Fall to that floor
Never to feel pain
No, no more!
