Who Am I?

I am normal like everyone else.
I am very shy around strangers,
but once you get to know me,
i don't seem that way.)

I'm a very quiet person,
but those who know me,
think I'm not.
What they don't know is
that I'm quiet about the things
that go on I'm my life

I want everyone to think
that I'm no different.
but i have my ups & downs
just like everyone else.

I am loving and forgiving
but i don't forget easily.
I get easily excited
but i like to keep my cools.

I like it when someone
want to get to know me,
but i tend to hide the real me.

I am constantly changing mood
but when I'm around my friends
its really hard to see it.

I love to give advice
but i fear giving it
when asked directly.

I have a complex personality
but I'm easy to get along with
I worry that i am different,
but that's something I'm proud of.

I cry when i feel lonely
but sometime
I just want to be left alone.

I don't show my feelings
but maybe because
its really hard for me.

I am self-destructive
when I'm in my lowest level
but i depend on others
and look for support
for my well being.

I am very honest
but when it comes to love
I cant tell you
whats really on my mind.

I sometimes seem reserved
but that just the way
I try to balance & heal things
until i can understand
what and why i feel what i do.

I am afraid of changes
but I'm up for any new challenge
and any new change.

I AM normal like everyone else
and this is who i am....