Never really was

I Know how it feels to loose the one person that makes you smile
the one person who takes you away from reality for a while
the one person that makes life worth living
and how they would never stop giving
but then one day they're just gone
and you cant help but wounder what you did wrong
you fell in love with them but it all fell apart
just when you needed them they broke ya heart
you never wanted to feel that pain again
n feel like your the one to blame
then you put yourself in an unimaginable state
your too far in and its way too late
he came into your life not knowing what he would do
you loved him he said he loved you too
but the difference with you when you said that
was you meant it and he took it back
so the one person you would die for wont ever love you again
the one person you lied for put you through all that pain
but if he ever came back you would let him back in??
because without him your glow has gone n lights are dim
you try-ed to change and try-ed to be perfect
but when he didn't come back nothing felt worth it
thought if you could somehow change
your memory might rearrange
every night you would lie in bed and cry yourself to sleep
your now in this too long and way too deep
you close your eyes in hope it will all go away
but you know it wont you will always be hurt, this pain is here to stay
but then u realize you don't miss him you just miss who he used to be
and it makes you feel a little more free
and as i sit here with mascara running down my face
i don't understand why i loved him in the first place....