I have something to Tell you today
But what i really want is to be far away
I dint know how to tell you it hurts so bad
I seem to think what ill say will make you mad
I dint know what to say to let you know
how i DAT with things when they consume me heart and soul
and how with in my world every things turned upside down
Ive done it again misery
You look at me with a mixture of puzzlement and reassurance
I stop dead your wide concerned eyes looking at me
I wish i could just disappear in your look
I'm trapped i freak i really am weak
i can no longer fight
BUT I CANT LOSE THE ONLY CONTROL I HAVE RIGHT
You look at me it penetrates my soul half of me wanting to come clean with you the other half clinging on shouting NO
I cant think straight hoping you cant tell ,the look in your eyes is willing me to say
but instead i simply turn away I'm so sorry i say to my surprise you dint shout or rant an wave you turn me around grab my hand in yours you stare straight at me and simply say its OK
