Do you know what its like?

Do you know what its like?
To hurt so bad at night that you grit your teeth?
That it hurts so bad emotionally that it almost hurts physically
...that you feel your going to throw up.
That you are hysterical and would do anything to get rid of it?

Do you know what its like?
To pound your fists against a brick wall desperately, hysterically?
Choking on your sobs, with tears streaming down your face?
To clutch your arms around yourself as your stomach turns and you choke on your every breath?
....as you lie on your bed, willing yourself to die. Anything to end the pain.

Do any of you know what its like?
To turn the music up so loud, but the pain is so intense nothing can block it out?
nothing can block out your pain...or the fighting or the screaming
...nothing can block out anything...

Do you know what its like?