SUFFERING

Smother my face in a pillow
press down until I no longer breathe,
drown me in your memory
thats what you do best it seems.

Cut deeper into my heart IF possible
sit back and watch it bleed,
instantly kill me with the thoughts of you
because it sure feels like dying to me.

Laugh about the hurt you've done
spit upon my face,
gossip about what you've put me through
and all that I've lost and not replaced.

Sit back and watch me suffer
knowing its impossible to make it w/out you,
ignore me and abuse me with words
knowing that loving you is all i know to do.

Live as if you've never met me
as if there was nothing inside,
and I'll smile and pretend u still luv me
As if you were still the love of my life!
**For Joshua Roberts** the love of my life..:(