We finally got back together but I am not happy like all my friends are. I mean I am little happy but I am very afraid of you. Cause I am afraid one day you are just going to stop calling me or say you do not like me no more. All my friends think that I am crazy because of it. But I do not know what to do. Every time I hear your voice I get nervous like I never before. I am afraid of you and there no other way to say it. I try to think that you will never do anything like that but my heart keep telling me maybe he will and that I should let you call me. But should I listen to my heart or my mind which is telling me that he will never do that and that he cares about me more than I care about him. I am afraid of you and I wish I wasn\'t. All I want is everything to go back to the way it was before we stop talking to each other. The way we made each other laugh. But it is not like that at all. I am so nervous on the phone that I do not know what to say to you and when I do I feel like I said it wrong. We never laugh when we are talking we just sit there waiting for the other to say something else. It make me want to cry sometimes cause I can tell by your voice that you are still sad and hurt by what I did to you. and that you are trying your best not to let me know but it is too late. I know matter what I say or do. I can never change the pain I gave you. I am afraid of you and there not other way to say it.
