To my dad

Daddy what I am about to say you not going to want to hear.
But sooner or later you\'re gonna have to listen.

And maybe after you do you will understand me more.
Since I was little I have kept this all bottled up inside.

But now I have gotta let it all out, and let you know just how I feel.
Even though years have passed since you have been that person,

I still remember all the things you use to do.
And I still feel the pain that I used to feel.

Now after all this time of keeping it inside of me,
I am hating you for it and paying for it everyday.

I still remember those nights when I would lay on the bathroom floor and cry.
Cry while hearing you yell and beat my mother.

I still remember waking up the next morning and seeing those bruises around my mother is beautiful blue eyes.
I still remember how the fear felt.

The fear to come home and go through another night of abusing.
I know you think everything is okay now.

But nothing will ever be okay.
These scars will forever be in my mind.

And the nightmares will never stop.
Those nights will just keep running through my mind.

And I will always remember what you have done.
I try to get over the feelings I feel.

But the more I try the more pain and hate I feel.
And every time I try to talk to you, you push me away.

And you say the past is the past.
But for me, father, the past is my present and future.

And I will never forget it...