I weep

I can sit here hounding myself for everything I set aside
Just to pick up the things I was supposed to hide
Throwing away the things that I should keep
I dont know why I do this so I weep

Have let go of the things that made me feel worth this
So as I stand here look down and go about my day feeling worthless
I try to uncover my feelings but I dont make a peep
So I stare at the ground and there I weep

Even when I try I cant seem to embrace this life im given
I have no courage to even try face this life im living
This depression I come upon each day gets so deep
Yearning for a fortunate life but suffer as I weep

I spent my time thinking about the feelings I need to fling
But spend my time doing the very worst of things
These feelings over come me and for they are so steep
That I cant even walk over them so I weep

I find myself crying at night a time when no one can hear
When I lay in bed wishing at times I would disappear
Days im okay, days im not, back and forth I leap
Exhausted from the day I lay there and I weep

There are times I feel like letting go cant take this any longer
But always take one more grasp and im back at where I wander
Im so weary of my feelings so I try to get some sleep
As I lye there and close my eyes I take tonights last weep