Like you said you always would

I ran to you;; makeup running down my face; eyes full of tears you took me in your arms, no questions asked you held me tight and kissed the tears away. you stroked my face, and whispered to me; how youd always love me and that youd never leave. i put on a brave face and a fake smile. one finger to the lips, and a kiss on the forehead, no one would ever know. the eyes dry, a hug goodbye, never knowing that this would be the last. i walked away that day the sun to your back, i fell asleep with a smile that night; never knowing that it would be my last for so long. now im sitting here thinking of all we\'d been through and how much i miss you. i remember all that i left unsaid, and everything that we never did; if only i could do this over. sitting here so many months passed, thinking about your smile and now it feels like your back from the dead i know ill never stop dreaming, and i dont think ill ever be the same. i cant say the hurting is over && i cant help but wonder, if theres a heaven and are you still watching over me like you said you always would.