How its meant to be

Have you ever sat and thought,
You just don't wanna live?
Have you ever sat and thought,
You have nothing left to give?
Sat and cried so many tears,
So many you lost count,
Do you have so many scars,
Nothing adds to that amount?
Is there a smile on your face,
When you feel the pain?
Coz when that smiles on your face,
Do you feel as if you gain?
Gain some feeling in your life,
To show that your not dead,
Coz when that feelings in your life,
Theres something in your head.
If every things so perfect,
Then why do I wanna die?
If every things so perfect,
Why do I have to lie?
I have to lie so I look fine.
So no one knows whats on my mind.
Why don't I go where no one knows
So no one will care.
My pain is deep,
So deep it shows.
Sometimes i wanna share.
Everyones happy,
All but me.
I'm on my own, but now I see,
Thats just the way Its meant to be