10pm-The darkness outside and within in, is drawing in. No-one to stop it.
The feelings inside start to unfold into their cruel, shadow less forms just as the rain clouds outside start gathering outside my window.
11pm-The house is quiet now. Mum, dad and sister are all off into their dream world, as i am entering my nightmares. Oh god please make me get to sleep, stop these temptations taking over me....
After this point, time does not matter, whether it has progressed or stopped completely. The desire to take control has seduced me.
My head is a whirlpool of emotion,
each taking their turn to spin in front of my eyes. Every word, every feeling taking its place in a scratch on my arm.
Worthless
Pathetic
Lonely
Ugly
Fat
Me
I cant do this anymore, somebody help me, i don't want to spend another summer in jumpers, to cover the slits that are my memories of these long, lonely nights.
7am-I wake up.
I Re-discover the scars and memories of last nights daily nightmare.
