CONFUSED

I feel Im nailed to the ground but nothings holding me back,
My heart bleeds and my envy runs just to get back on track,
What i would sacrifice to get free from this chain,
Would be double the commitment I have had to pain,
I cry out loud but no one seems to hear me,
Maybe they dont care, or they just dont want to see,
Slide the dagger slowly out of my chest,
The deeper its in always feels the best,
As my eyes start to close the path to life,
All I see now is me closing ever so quick to that light,
I hear my name but see no soul that could be calling,
What is happening to me whilst Im falling,
Could it be because I had no faith from the start,
Feeling my pulse seeing my pain hearing my heart
The ruins im left with now that im dead
I'm this the end of the road for me or is it all in my head????