Dont know what to do

I dont know
what to do with myself anymore
i miss you so very much
and all of a sudden
it got so much harder
and i try not to think of you
cause i just want to forget
for a little while
so i close my eyes
just so i cant look
at your picture for a while
but that doesn\'t seem to work
cause your face
is emblazoned
so vividly in my mind
so then
i go to sleep
cause that\'s the only place
i could think of
where you cant follow me
but wrong again
you\'re in my dreams
and sometimes
my dreams are so real
that i wake up
surprised
that you\'re not in my arms
and once in a while
it brings tears to my eyes
my memories of us
make it so hard not to cry
but most days
i do make it through
most days
i dont let my emotions show
and i dont let anybody know
but then
theres those days when
i have to tell somebody
theres those days when
i have to let it out
otherwise
i might drive myself crazy
and the days when
im all by myself
just me and the quiet
those are the days
your voice takes over my head
you know
i find it funny
i remember every word
you ever said
i remember the first words
you ever said to me
and i remember how
i was with my boyfriend
but my eyes were on you
and your eyes were on me
that was when it happened
you took over my feelings
you made me feel
for nobody but you
you made me fall for you
and i guess i forgot
to stop falling
i forgot
to put out my hands
and break my fall
but i\'m still falling
so i guess
it\'s not too late
to put out my arms
and my mind is telling me to
but my heart wont let me
my heart is telling me
that he'll catch me
right before i hit the ground
my heart is telling me
he\'s different
and he wont hurt me
but my mind disagrees
my mind is telling me
they\'re all the same
my mind is telling me
that he might very well be
\"THE ONE\"
but to protect myself anyways
be prepared to hit the ground
and its so confusing
i dont know who to listen to
i dont know what to do
cause im so
head over heels for this boy
and i know
he has feelings for me
but i dont know why
we\'re playing these games
i dont know why
we\'re not together
and
i dont know
what to do with myself anymore