What I'll Miss

What reason is there
for me to be trusted?
especially after
i just got busted?

My parents hate me
and i understand why
but every time i think about it
i can't help but cry

There's nothing i can do
to have their trust again
all i wanted from the beginning
was to be the best for them

I know I've let them down
in the worst possible way
and when they ask me what i was thinking
i don't know what to say

It was the most terrible mistake
and i know that i was wrong
but i never imagined what could happen
until my trust and privileges were gone

Now i suffer the consequences
without a doubt in my mind
that all i am to my parents
is just a waste of time.

i try my best to please them
with everything i do
with my actions towards my family and the grades i have in school

i always try to explain
that i love them with all my heart
and that i would do anything
to begin with a brand new start

but i will never get the chance
to tell them how i feel
because no matter how hard i try
they will not think its real

if i could tell them one thing
it would simply be just this
it's sad that i have no privileges
but your trust is what I'll miss.