Secrets Of An Addicton

It started a few days ago
As time goes on, ideas grow
My addiction to help stop the pain
Comes close enough to cut a vein

His eyes tell me he wants me to
But I've go nothing left for you
No love, no words, and empty feeling
My tears have dried and stained the ceiling

There are reasons that I hide
And keep my secrets locked inside
Plans I've made I'll soon regret
You don't even know it yet

This plan has got me hypnotized
I like this hate I feel inside
Control, fear, love, and smell
My secrets I can never tell