Clown

Why am i so weird
I'm taken over by fear
I used to be so strong
Where has the old me gone
I kill myself with memories
And weep around so unhappy
But I'm a clown so no one sees
Everything i do i regret
Then spend my days thinking of what i could have done instead
Depression eats away my heart
And takes every part of me that i loved
I'm dieing slowly cant you see
Someone please come rescue me
Ill scream inside
But I'm a clown so no one knows
I swore id always be ok
And nothing could ever take over me
I feel so trapped and unhealthy
I need to find a way to be happy
But i cant
My whole life is based on one big lie
who i used to be wasn't who i was inside
I thought that pride was everything
But i realize now its whats killing me
So if i can let it go
Ill be happy