I thought about girls, or having a girl. I want someone I can hold around the waist. Someone who's okay with catching some sun over ice-cream at Golden Gate park, someone I can hold intellectual conversation with over coffee at Cal, someone to hold hands with, someone I can scream at playfully and make fun of each other playfully. Someone who likes to dance and get crazy then hold hands when it's done. Someone I can have tea with and have moments of silence where all we do is look at each others eyes. Someone I can talk to endlessly on the phone. Someone who's happy when they see me and lets me touch her hair. Someone who's serious, funny, outgoing yet shy, smart, caring, talkative, cute and has her own unique style and cute facial expressions.
Most of the time I'm alright being single. Unfortunately, I know someone that fits all of the above. I'd like to have her but I know I won't. I almost called her beautiful but that would end all things. I hear she goes out with guys but is secretive to what she does. She's always getting hit on & goes on countless dates. Her way of speaking captivates me. She's the girl I described above. I want a chance to hold her, I want her, yet I'm sad, and it's all because of her.
