I Remember

Every morning I wake up,
To find that your not here.
Being that you left us,
Doesn’t mean that you didn’t love us.
Because you didn’t say “good-bye” to us
Didn’t mean that you didn’t want to.
Maybe you couldn’t, maybe we could have gotten you to stay a little longer,
Or talked you out of doing this.
Even though we can’t see you,
Doesn’t mean your not here with us.
Being that you are gone,
Doesn’t mean that your not gone from our soul.
It breaks my heart,
I can’t bear that your not here.
I still cry, I still question why,
There must have been something that kept crossing your mind.
It breaks my heart when I look at Hailey,
I can’t stand that you left your family and friends without a single word.
I can hear Hailey say “daddy my baby daddy”,
It’s going to hurt when we have to tell her where you’re at and why.
It keeps crossing my mind,
That your missing out on your baby girl’s life.
It’s hard that we have to watch your daughter grow up,
Because your not here.
I wish I could see you just one last time,
I wish I could hug you tight and never say good-bye.
But I know that isn’t going to happen any more,
My world is so cold and lonely without you here.
I really miss the way you laughed,
It was one of a kind.
And the way you never let us fall to the ground,
You always told us that there was more to life than this.
Why couldn’t you have listened to what you told us,
Maybe you would still be here maybe we wouldn’t be mourning.
And when the morning sun comes across my face,
I know that it’s time for another day of pain and sorrow.
When the night comes and the moon is full and the stars are shining bright,
I pick a star and pray upon it.
Every night I wonder what you are doing and where your at,
It hurts not to know if your doing okay.
All I want to say is that I love you and I hope you never go away,
My days are incomplete knowing that I can’t get a smile from you.
And if you are with Grandpa and Uncle Frank,
Tell them that we miss them.
We miss them just as much as we miss you,
I go to bed every night wondering why.
I even cry myself to sleep,
It hurts so much to know that I can’t see you.
But I know that your always in my soul,
And I know that your always a half a step behind me.
But that’s not what I want,
I want you here with us.
We miss you all so dearly,
We can’t stand that your not here.
Especially on the holidays,
I would love to spend them with you,
But you left so soon.
I remember when you told me you were going to get me an alpaca,
I was looking forward to that!
every time I see the picture of me and you,
I cry, I don’t understand why you left us.
The winter is the worst part about it,
When were sick who is going to take care of us?
You were the one who cared more about your daughter and us,
That you really didn’t care if you got sick too.
All you were worried about was us!
I miss that,
You were always a kind, caring person.
I remember when Hailey was born,
You were the most happiest person I knew.
We were all happy for you,
I remember on Hailey’s first birthday party.
You bought her a little 4 volt 4-wheeler,
She had so much fun with that!
What is Hailey going to think now,
When she realizes her daddy isn’t there on her 2nd birthday?
She is going to be so disappointed and upset,
She won’t know what to think.
But all we can do about it is tell her how good you were to her,
You are the luckiest person to have a daughter like Hailey.
Your daughter can do summersaults now.
I hope Hailey doesn’t grow up hating you,
For leaving her so soon.
I promise to tell Hailey all about you when she gets old enough to know about this.
It’s going to be hard but I think I can do it,
I remember you always used to call Hailey “Nigga Hay Hay!”
Hailey is the luckiest person,
To have a dad like you.
It takes someone important to be a father,
But it takes someone special to be a daddy.
Remember Jason you were loved,
And you’ll always be loved.
Through good and bad weather,
We promise to never let you go.
We promise to never let you down,
And we’ll never fall to the ground.
Because you were there for us when we needed you,
And now we have to be here for each other.
We know that god wanted you now,
So we let him set you free.
God just prove to us,
That he takes all the good people first.
We will miss you dearly,
Fiancée, daddy, grandson, son, brother, nephew, and cousin.