Myself

In the loneliness of my room
I'm feeling the tears slowly falling
down my sad face...
but I dont wanna stop them...

Cause the pressure inside is just
too big and I cant fight
against my feelings...
or I dont want to...

My feelings are all mixed up
and everything around me just
feels so unreal...
but why?

I look at the window and
see my own
miserable reflection, and I ask myself...
who is that girl?...

And then I realize
I dont know myself,
dont know that sad girl...
or I dont want to know her...

Am I just afraid to
be who I am
or afraid to become that miserable
girl I see...
I dont know...

I close my eyes, drying
the tears and looking
at the window again...
what do I see...

For the first time in my life i saw who
I wanted to see ...
strong, unbreakable, a real life fighter...
And I realize thats who I try to be...
wanna be... but not me...