Someone, Somewhere

As i place my fingers on the keys
or the pencil in my hand
its a feeble attempt to make you listen
or try to make you understand

i don't know why i cant just speak
i can never seem the find my words
and if i did, i always know
it would take a miracle to be heard

for someone such as me
no one knows this side
because I'm always the happy girl
and the one who never cries

but look deeper and you will see
someone you've never known
because with out you seeing
so much inside Ive grown

i understand the world better
i know what it is to fear
Ive been in love
and Ive been in pain
all inside my short sixteen years

i guess my thoughts and feelings
are just ramblings of a teen
but perhaps you'll listen if i tell you
i could shock you at what Ive seen

its not something inside this world
or something physical you can all see
but the images inside my head
and things i envision when i dream

its something i cant control
and some days it overcomes my mind
some days i want to stop it
but within this hell I'm confined

I'm not crazy or mental
please don't get me wrong
I'm just lost inside myself
and in this world i dint belong

theres good days
and bad days
and most days are a mix of each
by every day
its just sundown that i wish to reach

because when darkness comes
its my time
and i can escape my life
i can be alone for hours
and i can dream each dream twice

i don't know exactly
what it is I'm trying to tell you or say
i just hope somewhere, someone will understand
and perhaps help me someday