Trapped Inside

I look upon myself in disgust and fear
Sliding my hands down my stomach hastily
it feels jiggly and big, something not me
I'm trapped inside some ugly body, cant you see?
I don't mean what i say
I don't feel what i feel
I'm screaming out loud
Cant anybody hear?
I cut a piece of me away
And try to get out
Just red sticky liquid appears
Its not working but I keep trying for Someday it will
Someday the real me will come out
A skinny beautiful top model
But for now i wait and wait
Doing everything I can to get out