I THOUGHT

Lying here insane with thoughts of you,
how could you after what we had?
I fell in love with you from the start and with one look you stole me heart,
you spoke kind words,
they flowed out so smoothly,
nothing holding them back always say'n what was on your mind.
Now you do this?
shut me out and reject me?
You said through thick and thin,
you would always be here for me,
to always hold my head up high, to always be careful,
you were the first one who would say "I love you I swear i d"
And to not do nothing wit no guy if at a party.
You were different from the rest.
The only one who cared.
But what happened?
I don't wanna cry its weakness from the heart,
so now my blood drips and falls like tears would from the eyes,
its kinda like a silent cry let out frm the heart,
cause its the only way i can show my pain, with out quite weeps and salted tears,
I feel insane crazy and used!!!
I let our a scream into my pillow,
I scream so loud and so much that no sound is left under my skin.
You only wanted to play with my feelings, to see what you could do to me,
well look!!!
You got what you wanted are you happy now?
What did i do to you to deserve this?
I thought you were something else,
Something different from all the rest,
but you proved me wrong, you showed me how its like.
And now all there is, is a shattered heart, streams of blood and thoughts of you,
i don't understand why are you still there?
Your still the thought filling my head,
if you caused me so much pain then why is it you i keep thinking about?
All i want to do is forget about you!!!
But every second and hour you find a way to slowly creep into my thoughts!!!!
I thought you were something else,
something different from all the rest,
but you were just the same,
Now I'm just lying here,
insane with thoughts of you.