Guilt

I can't look at myself
in the mirror anymore,
without feelings of regret.
then thoughts of my past race
through my mind
as the truth begins to set.

i don't deserve you
because I was so goddamn blind,
i screwed up this time
i was out of my mind.

I'm a failure, i let you down
why is it you cant see,
that you deserve so much
better than me.

this guilt is slowly killing me
it's tearing me apart,
I'm so sorry
i didn't mean to break your heart.

i never thought that i could do this
I'm filled with disbelief,
but it's already done
now I'm filled with so much grief.

grief because it's my fault
because I'm the one to blame,
i cant look at myself
because I'm filled with so much shame.

i apologize a million times
i cry a million tears,
i cry because it's my fault
because your no longer here.

i thought we'd never end
but it proves never say never,
because it's my fault
that i lost you forever.