So cold

I lost my mind last night
flew of the handle too much
for i was lost in my own head
craving for a caressing touch

I lost the plot last night
became the mad man id always feared
cried for everything in this world
cried a thousand tears

I fell into that hole last night
the one id finally managed to escape from
and i keep losing my grip on life
I feel a ticking time bomb

I'm scared of so much in this life
It takes all i have to act brave
To pass the time like every other
Waiting quietly for that i crave

In anticipation i do wait
too see whats around the bend
whether i shall find those i have loved
or whether my life shall come to an end

Patiently i am waiting
for my depression to subside
for my mood swings to cease
I'm getting sick of having to hide

I look for those in need
Those that need some love
to save them from a fiery end
Those that are too young to fly up above

Sometimes i am quiet
i just contemplate things
things that make me smile
or things that sadness brings

Sometimes i am loud
For i want to fight for whats right
giving those that deserve it some pain
and helping those that don't the light

Save me from getting in too deep
for it has a small but firm hold
It will pull me down without your help
I can feel it surround me. So cold