Suicide

Its f.u.c.k.e.d up
but the door is shut
why'd you have to be so cute
its impossible to ignore you
i love you so much
I'm just not enough
what does me losing you show
why did you leave why did you go
i cant believe this stupid shit
you thought you were my boyfriend and thats it
but no, no you were so much more
you were my world but you left me for that w.h.o.r.e
what does she have that i don't
you told me to let you go but i wont
you used to sit there and hold my hand
&& you said i would do it with my new mann
but I'm not going to have a new mann
you were the one i could be comfortable with in the sand
the one that i thought would never make me cry
the one i thought could see me behind my eyes
the only one i wasn't invisible to
the mann i truly love is you
how could you do this to me
ill get a razor blade and make you see
I'm putting it to my wrist are you happy now
would you jump for joy as i take my last bow
tears now are streaming down my face
and all i am thinking is how i am such a disgrace
bleeding now from the razor blade
thinking about us sitting in the shade
it was just me and you when you said you loved me
yea now can you actually see
slitting my wrist deep as h.e.l.l.
why cant you explain and tell
look in my eyes when my body is dead on the floor
sure you told me you loved me once before
but you didn't mean it at all
so when you see me don't fall
tell me you love me one last time
goodbye this is my suicide....