A fading memory

Your smile it is fading
From more than just your face
Its fading from my memory
Soon gone without a trace

Doing anything to see it
If for only one more time
Not trying to bring it back to you
Would be my cruelest crime

A knife is shoved into my back
Piercing through my skin
Cutting the strings of my heart
Because I can not bring you back again

Although you sit in front of me
You're more lost everyday
Wanting to reach out for you
And feel you hold me one more day

A part of you is missing
A part that I cannot repair
Taking away the mother I knew
It just seems so unfair

With everyday that passes
I feel so much more alone
Knowing you are fading
And leaving me all on my own

Watching you I sit and wonder
Why you do not seem to care
Wanting you to realize
At my heart you start to tear

I would die to have you back
To see you smile once for real
Wishing that my mothers embrace
Was something I could feel

Hoping everything would change
Letting myself believe
That one day everything would be fine
But my heart, you did deceive

For I put all my trust in you
And you lied to me every time
Because of you I don't feel
And that, is your cruelest crime

I don't smile anymore
I don't let emotions show
The thing that I do hate the most
Is you do not wish to see me grow

You don't wish to see the things I love
Or be part of my life
You do not want to see my passions
Or care to help me with my strife

Sometimes I get the feeling
That to you I'm a mistake
Knowing everything you say
Is just you being fake

Your smile it is fading
From more than just your face
It's faded from my memory
Now gone...without a trace

please rate and comment on this one. I'm having a really hard time with this...

thanks...