Story of my life

I need you
but which one of you should i choose?
I love one but i like the other
so it must be one or the other

my life is stuffed up
i hate my mother
i miss my brother
i am like no other

i cant die coz it would hurt you
but i feel like there is nothing else i can do

my life is crap, i hate it so
i want to end it but i keep saying no

i have friends that care
friends i feel i dont deserve
they are wasted on me
but that they cant see

i cant end my pain
without hurting anyone
i feel so vain
i cant get past all my pain

please someone take the pain
before i put the knife through my vein
i sit it on my arm at night but it wont cut
though i try with all my might

it just leaves marks that wont fade
i gave my knife to a friend
the wrong friend, a bad choice i made
coz her life is as messed up as mine

i never thought this could happen to me
but my eyes are now open, and i can see
i feel as though life was never for me