I'm Sorry

It's the first thing that comes to mind,
When ever I become misaligned.
It's like that's the only way,
Because their feelings seem to sway.
I can't do anything right,
No matter if it is day or night.

I always make them sad.
Nothing seems to add.
Will they even care,
If I am not their.
Will they notice if I die.
They don't when I am alive.
They don't even know,
That to me they are a foe.

They always seem to hurt me.
I can never be free.
I might as well die right now,
Because this pain I cause, I can not allow.
One day they will find my body.
It will be all bloody.
They will cry and scream.
It would be just like a dream.
They will ask why
I would want to die.
They will see all of my pain.
They would question if I was even sane.

I don't even know anymore.
I am just so sore.
All the pain I cause myself,
The most emotional pain you can bring on oneself.
I am broken into two.
All this is true.

One part of me you see.
The other is the real me.
The part you see looks fine,
But the reflection is not mine.
I am the one in the dark.
Claimed by the mark.
You may ask who.
It was you.
That the reason I am like this,
And not in eternal bliss.

It was because of everyone,
That I did what I have done.
That I made the cut.
You may say but.
People here do care.
Hoping my life I can spare.
But it is too late.
I have already made my fate.

I shall bring myself down.
In this small little town.
I can not take your hand.
I already can't stand.
This pain for you is too much.
It hurts you with every touch.

To try and help me with this pain
The end will be vain.
My life I shall claim.
Noone but me I will blame.
It was my own heart
That made me start.
This world is just so black.
So I will never come back.

The pain I want to stop.
So I can reach the top.
I know everyone will be hurt.
It makes me feel like dirt.
In the end I will pay.
But first I want to say
I'm sorry.