Almost Gone

Ill never forget that terrible call,
The one saying you were in that car that never made it to the mall.

Tears began to fall as soon as I hung up the phone,
I felt numb, like I was in the zone.

Its strange how someone could go from being so mad,
To all of a sudden being so sad.

I rushed to the hospital as fast as I could,
Going because I love you, not just because a sister should.

When I got there, I wanted you to hug me and tell me itll be all right,
But I couldnt even recognize you at first sight.

While you were in the hospital, I never wanted to leave your side,
And it broke my heart every time you cried.

It was so hard to see you in that hospital bed,
Saying things you didnt remember you already said.

In your sleep youd moan and cry from the pain,
Now your only 18 and you might have to walk with a cane.

They say its a miracle you survived,
And that we should be thankful that you are alive.

So there are so many things I need to say,
Because, big brother, you almost werent here today.

Even now as you begin to heal,
Guilt is still what I feel.

I cant even remember why we were in a fight,
But Ill say or do anything to make it right.

It kills me that while you were hurting I was busy being mad,
I wish I could take it all back cause now I feel so bad.

Why were those three words I hate you that last thing I said,
I wish I wouldve said I love you instead.

But, Stephen, you made it through,
And from now on everyday Ill say I love you.

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