Dont no what youve got till its gone

If you think that I'm gonna be ok your so wrong,
Whenever I see you I try so hard to stay strong.
The pain is like a thousand needles digging into my wrist,
The only thing I think of is the night of our first kiss.
Love is a word that can often be misused,
I know that I'm love because I feel like my hearts being abused.
When I see you with her it's not jealousy I feel,
I don't know what it is, but what I feel for you is real.
If you could see my pillow that I sleep on at night,
The one that I cry on as I hold it tight.
Or if u read my diary that forever I shall keep,
The one with your name written on every sheet.
For losing you I have myself to blame,
If only you still felt the same.
I guess one thing was true all along,
You don't really know what you've got till it's gone.