You caused this pain

The self infliction pain on the outside
Can mever measure up to the pain i hide
The pain bottled up and stored inside

This pain came from you over the years.
All the things that caused my tears.
Each thing showing me a breakdown nears

So here I am in front of you
with painful-looking scars on the outside too.
Some of them old, some of them new

The internal and external pain I bear,
did not come from joy or fear,
they were caused by you, mother dear