I softly whisper

Each day I wakeup and put on some makeup in the hope that Ill be pretty enough for you to glance my way. I cry myself to sleep at night because behind these hazel eyes lies my eternal depression and razorblade obsessions.. You see my happy smile not knowing that it's forced.. I lie straight too your face while I stand there holding suicides hand and tell you that i'm okay. The darkness is creeping in all around me and destroying what's left of me. I get the blade and hold it tight wondering wether to do it tonight?
Should I wait a thousand years for you to glance my way
Or just give up right now and throw my life away..?
My life is stupid and so fu&*ed up
I always wonder why it even exists
So tonight will be the night I say my goodbyes
Tonight will be the night I throw it all away
Down my cheeks drip crimson tears
As I lay here dying without a care
I softly whisper.. I'll love your forever..