Loved murderer

The story of his life, searching for the right, but it keeps avoiding him.
sorrow in his soul, cause it seems like wrong, really likes his company.
I'm more then a girl, this is more then love, i wonder why he cant see.
the rain is pouring down, now hes not alone, but problem is hes not with me.
i hope he knows how i feel, this kills me inside to know that he is happy with some other girl, can he see I'm dying?
i don't want him anymore,
i don't want my love to be why
he feels guilty to love
anybody but myself.
i don't wanna hurt anymore
i don't wanna die like this
i don't want to love a murderer.
i feel it in the air, as I'm looking where, my killer boy could be.
he yells out my name, but i turn around to find, that its just my friend, Ashleigh.
i say 'hold on a sec, just gotta find this boy', gosh, hes killing my friendships too.
i don't understand why hes permanent in my heart, mind and soul.
hes lost my trust, he might as well take a gun and put it to my head, get it over with, i don't wanna do this anymore.i don't wanna love a murderer...