My Mothers Dying Love

I dont know what to say.
its unexplainable on all levels.
the way my stomach turns.
i dont want to go on another day.
not like this.
theres gotta be another way.
these fights every freakin nite.
youre all i have for a parent
but im your third and final child.
so you dont care about our relationship,
because youve got others to make it right with.
but me, all i have is you.
why would i want to mess that up?
i dont have the options you do.
so treat me differently and continue not to care.
but you know what imma always be here.
& when the other children ditch you, im sorry.
but remember.i was the one who tried.
who spent months and years trying to build us up.
but everyday it never failed for you to tear us down.