What have i become?!!

Look at what ia have become!!
this is not me...
it never was.
why am i letting people push me around like this?
who am i???
what have i become?
its not something i am proud of.
its not something i will show off.
its something that will hide forever in me.
and theres nobody or nothing that can help that.
theres nothing that can stop that.
because it lives inside of me forever.
and soon it will kill me.
the thing that i have alwayz feared is now me.
the one thing that i have ran away from for so long now lives in me..
and soon i will not care what happens to me.
because what i have become is now a fallen angel from hell its self!!!
forever in pain forever in hell...!!!