It's Not Over

On the verge of complete destruction,
But I just won't seem to crack.
I've cried myself to sleep at night
In hopes that you'd come back.

Blindly I let down my defenses,
And I showed you how I'm impaired,
Hurt by rejection, crushed by defeat,
And now I admit I was unprepared.

I was unprepared for your interests.
Recklessly ready to love as I am.
I was caught off guard by your fervor
To hold my heart in the palm of your hand.

It's all so different now, as I see it.
And there's really no turning back.
For days I waited to hear your voice.
They're now nights of starless black.

I call upon these memories for sedation.
Faintly, I remember a feeling so sweet.
And then when you left, and as I healed,
I came to realize that I'm incomplete.

We both said our goodbyes quite callously,
Now I'm longing to hear your tone,
Dripping with lies, numb from the pain,
And heavy in the fear of being alone.

If I could take it all back I would.
I would swallow all those useless tears,
I would drown my broken heart in silence
And rewind these past few years.

On the verge of complete destruction,
And all that I really have left to say...
Is that it'll never be over between us
And I'm so sorry for leaving this way.