It was really a sign

My head is filled with thoughts
Thoughts of suffering and pain
Wondering if my life will change
Knowing I'm far from sane
I hear voices in my head
They always talk to me
They tell me if I don't let go
In my future I'll be free
Yet my heart feels so empty
I have no love to give
This hate I have for others and myself
Makes it so hard to live
But it seems like I'm always giving in
Hold the knife to my chest
Thinking it will be over soon
It's only for the best
But the faith from all the people
Who I knew cared so much, made me drop the knife
It seemed no pain in this world was strong enough
To make me take my life
So really I guess I realized
That there is a way out for me
And the worst had to come first
Before I could finally see