I Make Them Believe I Don't Love Him

I tell them I hate him and they believe me
I tell them that he is in the past
But no one knows
That my love for him still lasts

I tell them everything is perfect
And that I'm fine
But trust me they have no idea
How much I cry

I tell them I could look in his eyes and say "I don't love you,"And also say, "I'm not going to talk to you anymore,"
But that's only what I wish I could do
Because the truth is my heart is still sore

I tell them that if he offered to make things work
I would definitely tell him that it's not going to happen
But no one really knows
That for him I still have love and compassion

I tell them I would tell him I don't even want to hug
I wouldn't even want him to touch me
But the real truth is
That I would rather be in his arms than be free

I tell them that I don't want to go back
That he is completely out of my life
But they have no idea
That he not being here makes me want to die

I tell them that I can move on
And date other people
But they don't know anything
Because inside I'm too weak and feeble

I would actually love him to be in my life
And I would love him to be right here
But all I tell the other people
Is that I don't really care

And the more I lie the more it's hurting me
Because I know what the true feeling is
Oh how much I want him to be with me
How much I miss his kiss!

So I hide all my feelings
And keep it all inside
No one knows because, really
He was the only one I could confide

He talks to me sometimes
When the people are not there
He says, "How are you doing?"
I try to hide it but inside my eyes are tears

But I play it all cool
Make it sound like everything is okay
But little does he know
That I cry day after day

I want to be with him so much
But I don't want them to know
I make them believe I don't love him
But the truth is that I can't let him go

***Hey, this is Justina. Some of you probably read this already because it was in my old account but it got suspended and this is a new one. So this is MY original work. Tell me what u think....***