Crushed after a 3 year Crush

You tried to do it gently
So i guess I shouldn't care

But the way you touched me
It made me feel
So childish

Like you were the toy
I just couldn't get

Others said they thought I loved you
But that I just couldn't see

I wanted you for my heart
I wanted to in your arms be

In the end I was
But that was because it was to end

I wanted them to look our way
And say
I can't believe she did it

That they would know
My patience payed off

Selfish maybe
But I believe it was worth it

Even if the kiss I'd swore to take
Never even came near my lips

We had our fun I guess
At least I can say as much

To that boy I guess I'll be alright
No war was everyone when the fight chose not to fight

So in the end I do not know
Whether I'm upset for losing him
Or not winning