I wish I didn''t

I wish I didn't say those things,
The things, which made you mad,
Which replaced our days of joy,
With days that made me sad,
To speak my heart, not my mind,
Lust I couldn't command,
To hug you now, through a thick word,
Held in the Devil's hand,
I wish I didn't say those things,
In days which flew so fast,
To stumble on a word,
Which I recognized in the past,

The beauty of eyes,
It seems, I can't make out,
You're too far in my past,
Only, the smile, your own doubt,
To see you walk away,
Leave my side, another time,
I admit a tear forms,
But because of you I'm fine,
You took my heart, lived my life,
But never did you succeed,
As I'm still standing, living,
With the gift you left in me,

If I could tell you what love is,
How much you mean to me,
You could lighten hells darkness,
Open my eyes to see,
Beyond the barricade of him,
There's a girl I want for me,
Through the barricade of him,
I hope that you see,
Sitting where you'll find me,
Not move until we meet,
Love will command me,
Not miss a single beat,