Leaving me

We had so many moments;
Some bad, most great.
I'll always remember the love
And erase all the hate.

I don't want to say good- bye
To my best friend.
I don't want this friendship
To come to an end.

i love you so much.
not to be gay,
but now you are leaving.
now the pain is here to stay.

i am all alone in this place.
with all the pain,
&& all the heart ache.
with everything to loose && nothing to gain.

who to turn to?
who to blame?
with my heart covered in blue,
i lay here && cry.

forever is now just a word.
it has no meaning.
with out a friend to share it with.
there is no shoulder for leaning.

i lay here && weep.
without eating,
&& without sleep.
now you must go.

you will find someone new.
&& i will not.
i will stay blue.
everyday i rot.