Why Do I Block Out The One I Love?

My hands are shakey and my mind is trembly

I don't know why i do this and i don't know how to fix it

I want to make things better but i feel that i've already let go of everything that was once loved

Why do i chose to block out the only person who actually cares about me

When she came to me crying, the best thing i could of done was be there for her

I tried to tell here that everything will be better as the days go on

But i don't think that they quite got through to her

I think i was just saying those things to convince myself that things will be okay

But as the days go on, i fall harder and harder into what seems perfect

But perfect doesn't include daily arguments and tears

I don't mean to do this... i don't

I just wish she would realize that everything that happens is my own fault not hers

I'm just selfish.