I'll Never Let It Show

Blood is streaming down my arm
Flowing from my veins
These once white sheets are nothing more
Then a dirty, crimson stain

Yet for the moment I feel so peaceful
Like the world is far away
Tomorrow will never get to me
Because I no longer exist today

I tried to make myself stop
But the razor was calling to me
Along with my mothers constant punishments
Through my tears I could barely see

I just wanted her to stop
But she still hurt me so
I've given up on things getting better
I'm ready to let go

All I wanted was to smile
And know how wonderful it felt
All I wanted was for people to care
But no one bothered to help

I don't believe that it will end
These terrors that I live through
I don't see the point in trying
When this is what I have to look forward to

My suffering is inevitable
The pain I hide will never go
Guess I'll just have to continue the hiding
And not let any of it show.