My mind

You look into my eyes and say your the one the one i want to marry but as i open my mouth I'm tempted to tell the truth but all i can say is lies.I never meant to be cold and distant i never wanted it to be this way maybe if i had been persistent those are the words i long to tell you.

But i don't want to hurt you i didn't want you see the screwed up part that is me i wish i could set myself free but i cant let you go i cant lose another one no not this time.So i pretend to be happy for a while i even smile i never meant to be so fake its killing me on the outside but at the same time i cant take it any longer.

I just want you to see who i really am I'm not as strong at i appear you seem to over estimate me.i wish you could see the part of me who is losing her mind who seems to never find the time to let down her wall of darkness.

I seem to be in a dream that i cant get out of i keep falling but there is no end.I try to grab your hand but you let go and you say no not again.