The rumours are true, she\'s leaving and no one can stop her.
I know why she\'s leaving and at the same time I donâ??t.
Her eyes were a light blue the first time I met her but now their a dark deep blue. So deep that when I look into them I feel like I\'m falling. Falling so fast and no one can hear me screaming for help.
What is wrong with her? Why does she make me feel so worthless? When I try to look from her eyes I find that I cant and before I know it, I\'m drowning. Water seeping into my mouth, filling up my lungs so fast that I can no longer breathe. That\'s when I look away as quickly as possible before I suffocate and amazingly no one realizes my pain, her pain.
Why is everything so complicated?
I have felt the way she does but not for this long. The time that has passed since she let it slip that something was wrong has been flying past me without waiting for me to catch up leaving my heart to throb in pain because I know that she wont let me in any further, causing my mind to ache.
And when she talks to that someone else it frustrates me, makes me angry and sad.
I\'m afraid that I\'m jealous and I donâ??t want to be but the feeling is so strong that it wont go away and even though I push and kick at it, it stays, getting stronger and stronger by the minute.
I am not as sad as she is and yet I am, why is this road called \'complicated\' so long? When will it end and when will I turn into another direction, hopefully one that gives me hope and happiness?
I wait for that day impatiently because just when I think it\'s here, it slips away.
