Dead Inside

Turn around and walk away
This is what her brain will say.

No more friends, No more life
She thinks about it
as she grabs a knife.

There is nothing left of me
just bones, blood, and flesh.
When will I make this end?
Her life put her to the test.

She thinks about her family
and how much she really cares.
Then it hits her that her family
was never even there.

She cried alone, she would die alone
as she thought about it more.
She thinks about all the times
someone closed there door.

Its not like she was mean
she tried to have fun
but everyone she met
would push her away and run.

What is wrong with me?
She asked to herself.
Why does everyone push me away
or put me on the shelf?

She hates who she is
and doesn't know what to do.
She cries about it more and more
she thinks her life is through.

I feel like an illness to people
like they can only handle me for awhile.
then they get really sick
and think I'm something vile.

She stares at the blade
of the knife thats been in her hand
will she go along
with her hopeless and selfish plan?

Who would really care
if they found me dead?
I feel like no one wants me here
or is it all just in my head?

She want someone who stays
instead of getting up to leave.
She lifts up her arms
and wipes the tears on her sleeve.

She cant even look in a mirror
because of what she sees.
I'm a worthless human being.
Then she drops to her knees.

Tears pour from her eyes.
She knows they have won.
She hates to go outside
when morning has begun.

She hates to ever trust
because they throw her away.
She regrets what she has told.
Why do I always pay?

What did I do wrong?
She always blames the person she is.
I always try to help.
She doesn't know why she lives.

She wants to go on
but she feels so ashamed.
She wants to know how
she can feel so much pain.

I hurt so much inside.
She just wants to make it end.
She cant trust herself
she cant even trust her friends.

The end is coming near
as she lays down the knife
Maybe tomorrow ill find the strength
to end this pathetic life.

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